DD = dreaded diagnosis

I have trouble even saying this, but today, it was determined or decided (whichever sounds less harsh) that Easton has asthma. I shudder when even saying the word. I kind of knew it may be coming, with last fall E having some respiratory troubles and then having to do a steroid treatment for 3 months at his 15 month appointment. His doctor basically told me he was "borderline" asthmatic. I didn't want to believe that, so I just pretended she never mentioned it, hoping it wouldn't come back up. Then, just a few days ago, Easton started getting a runny nose, which eventually turned in to wheeziness, and then a cough came along. The nurse actually thought he may have croup, but when I brought him in today, they took a listen and were contemplating another chest x-ray. After nebulizer treatments of strong antibiotics, she determined that he does in fact have asthma and his trigger for flare ups is ANYTHING viral. Whenever he gets the common cold, or even a runny nose, we have to be prepared that he will have, in lamens terms, an "asthma attack" or very bad wheeziness, which will scare us every time, but we just need to wait it through with stronger nebulizer medicines. I was in denial earlier because I look at my little boy and see no imperfections. To me, he is absolutely the most perfect little man that I could have ever hoped for. After some tears and a "come to Jesus" meeting with myself, I concluded that asthma is the LEAST of my/our worries. Life could be SO much worse for Easton and our family, and if asthma is the worst thing we have to worry about, then we are in good shape. It was difficult to turn that negative in to a positive, but really, I have no other choice. I can't change the fact that he has asthma, all I can do is hope that he will be in the percentage that grows out of it. AND, who knows.. maybe he will, but if he doesn't, we will manage and be okay :)
I don't have much else to say about the topic, as I am still grasping it, but I just needed to write it out - which I hope will help :)

Easton at the doctor, yet again

Farewell to 2012!

HAPPY NEW YEAR

Wow, what a year it has been! I personally love this time of year, because I am able to reflect upon the previous year and really realize how blessed I am to have what I have and to be where I'm at. With that, I cannot wait to see what 2013 has to offer :)

E continues to be the biggest blessing we have been given and we couldn't imagine our life without him. He is the sweetest, most loving, humorous, sensitive little boy I have ever met.

E couldn't make it until midnight

Here are some of my resolutions for the new year:

* Get my paperwork/application in and go back to school in the fall

* Continue making E my priority, but spending more quality time with my husband

* Work harder to make exercise and eating healthy a part of my daily routine.

* Be a role model that my mother would be proud of (for E, my husband, family, friends, students)

That's about it for this year - I have found that if I make too many resolutions, they get pushed to the side... so I think 4 is a good start :) 

I hope everyone has a great New Years Day and an even greater 2013! Here is my wish for all that I love:

“I hope that in this year to come, you make mistakes.

Because if you are making mistakes, then you are making new things, trying new things, learning, living, pushing yourself, changing yourself, changing your world. You're doing things you've never done before, and more importantly, you're Doing Something.

So that's my wish for you, and all of us, and my wish for myself. Make New Mistakes. Make glorious, amazing mistakes. Make mistakes nobody's ever made before. Don't freeze, don't stop, don't worry that it isn't good enough, or it isn't perfect, whatever it is: art, or love, or work or family or life.Whatever it is you're scared of doing, Do it.Make your mistakes, next year and forever.” ― Neil Gaiman